beepebbles

Sun, 16 Aug 2009 00:20:07 GMT

do you understand how many times this chemistry thing has been brought up in my mind?

alot.

Sat, 15 Aug 2009 03:46:24 GMT

a text from josh:

"yeah you and him. In my mind when I think of either of you. The only person I can picture either of you with is each other. You guys are meant to be. At lease I think so. But there are bumps in the road."

comment to that james.

good day turned bad.

Sat, 15 Aug 2009 03:16:31 GMT

i had such a day full of optimism for us.
that changed didn't it?

i love chemistry and we had a lot of it. i still thought we did until i read that entry.
come on are you being serious?

fuck

brittany pebbles.

shit.

Tue, 21 Jul 2009 16:12:17 GMT

i wake up everyday at 1pm. i fucking hate it. i lose half my day cause i cant get my ass out of bed in the morning......its shitty.

today i am going to take my sis to the ortho, then go to the factory in rochester to watch sticks and stones play, then to erins for the night. which i kinda wanna go to but dont......i am going though.

goodbye.

Sun, 19 Jul 2009 04:48:07 GMT

message me if any of my friends on here still use this somewhat.

Sat, 24 Jan 2009 19:57:19 GMT

i miss when i didn't have to worry about things.
i miss my life of being alone.
everything is way easier that way.

Fri, 26 Dec 2008 03:54:05 GMT

i never thought this would happen.
i hate it so much.
but it has to be like this.

merry christmas.

Thu, 11 Dec 2008 01:44:15 GMT

the roads are covered in white. i can hear the wind yet the stillness of no one. laying my head back i think for just a minute. my body is numb and immoble. i am still thinking. not thinking about how this happened but wondering if you would ever miss me. thinking about what you will do after all this is done. thinking about if we will make it through. maybe a feeling in your head just told you something happend? i sit upside down trying to breath but still can't move. i am crying now. scared and alone. but none of that matters. i can honestly say only you. i grab my phone and give my one and only phonecall. you.

please come and visit me. tell me everything is going to be alright. please?

Wed, 26 Nov 2008 23:44:22 GMT

me and mike got tickets to city and colour today.
and i drove to the mall twice.
and now we are waiting to go to brent's.
and i am not driving!!!!!!!!!!!!
so don't ask me again.

Thu, 20 Nov 2008 00:56:26 GMT

it has been 11 weeks of nothing. i am kind of dissapointed in myself for that. but whatever. school has been really good. i love every aspect of it. there is too much to really talk about from these weeks of not writing anything down, but i just came home from chicago. i wish i could have had more free time than i did. i had to dance from sunrise to sunset. i still managed to take some pictures and walk the streets. oh and go to the CHEESECAKE FACTORY. the ceilings look like butt cheeks in there.
haha.
a man is coming to dinner tomorrow.

fuck fuck fuck

Sat, 30 Aug 2008 07:35:56 GMT

fuck you bitch....
peach fest wasn't that great at all.
i should of went to abby's to watch movies.
but i didn't
and i am drunk and this fuckin' sucks.
i am glad james is at sam'sm
yesss it might be a bad day tomrorrow

Fri, 29 Aug 2008 05:39:04 GMT

the definition of the summer of 08' is.........

TWO FACED BITCHES.

dear anonymous,

Sun, 24 Aug 2008 16:06:28 GMT

i don't know what you want from me.
do you hate me this much to publicly yet secretly tell me i am a fuck up.
it doesn't make since how someone can feel ok to do this.
i am sorry if i have ever done anything to you.
but i just feel instead of just acting like this is a joke,
why dont you just straight up tell me why your doing this or better yet tell me who you are.
and its uncalled for if your doing this just to be the funny person who makes brittany look like a dumbass.

but there are those people out there that don't feel anything when they do this.
if your that person, then i am so sorry.

sincerely,
brittany

baby james

Fri, 22 Aug 2008 04:59:18 GMT

you know i love you.
i know your upset about all the stuff i wrote but just think about it.
it wasn't bad.
i mean it sort of was. but not totally.
all i want in life if for you to love me.
and me being my selfish self, i tell myself that you don't.
but you do, i know you do.
and thank you for that.
and i love you too baby.

and fuck you anonymous little fucker.

questions: what the fuck is a question?

Tue, 19 Aug 2008 06:18:53 GMT

is golf a sport?
what actually is a fact?
is there always that one person you can talk to?
why is the word "insane" when you feel is should be somewhat "outsane"?
is it right to keep the wrong thing in your head?
should i really buy those boots from aldo?

those are my thoughts of the day. i hope they keep you thinking.
yess. goodnight. goodnight DM.

also a question for you: who the fuck is DM?

add me as a friend please

Mon, 18 Aug 2008 06:26:26 GMT

i don't really feel like posting anything. but today was alright. i worked all day and didn't have one thing to actually do. so i organized about four boxes of our beads and sorted them by stone and size. it took me about 5 hours. then i sat there until the clock read 6 and peaced. then i went to justin perek's it was alright. not bad at all. very mellow. and now i am at netty's up by myself once again but its ok i am sleeping in her bed by myself cause rosie and netty fell asleep on the couch. i just really hope they dont wake up and come sleep in here with me. i am super comfortable.

Sat, 16 Aug 2008 04:51:55 GMT

jeanette is sleeping.
rosie is sleeping.
jaclyn went home.
kate went home.
kayla went home.
i am up.
i am bored.
i am at netty's house.
call me.

Fri, 15 Aug 2008 04:40:19 GMT

just so everyone knows don't ask to borrow my clothes. ever.

actually that was a joke because everyone who is my livejournal friend can borrow my clothes.

but you know when someone asks to borrow something and you totally have no idea where they got the balls to ask cause that person isn't really in that type of relationship with you.

it's annoying.

but really any of you guys can borrow my clothes any day.
if you really wanted to i guess. nothing special.

confusing. sorry.

pandy, the indestructable panda.

Thu, 14 Aug 2008 05:44:29 GMT

what you want in life can never be looked for.it must be brought to you and must be right in your face for some people to realize. that right there is what i want or in a matter for most of us who we want.
have you found the right person? you make yourself believe that that man right in front of you is your future. but only cause you want him to be. vise versa for you men. but stop believing that someone must meet all these standards. cause inside of you, you know who or what is in store for you. but you have to allow yourself to become of that.
also do not take anything for granted.

jaclyn's ungrounded.

Tue, 12 Aug 2008 23:41:56 GMT

i met craig owens today for the second time.

Mon, 11 Aug 2008 03:07:42 GMT

neil broke down a few days ago.
but he is slowly recovering.

Fri, 08 Aug 2008 15:43:02 GMT

wow a very unexpected turn has just kicked me in the ass.
FUCK YOU.
AND.
FUCK YOU.
now truly everything is ruined.

Wed, 06 Aug 2008 19:39:22 GMT

i honestly never thought this would come.
it really isn't supposed to be like this.
do you know when your really ready for the future and you think it will work out like that but it doesn't. that was stupid of me to say that considering thats how things always go. but not this. this wasn't supposed to be like this i know it. and you know what. i dont care at all what i am about to do, cause honestly instead of trying not to be those girls that sit and secretly talk about their love life. which was me. and now i don't care and here is my story. read it or don't.

i am in love with james. i know that. and really thats the only thing i really ever knew. but james isn't in love with me not like he used to. and i have been a bitch. i tried to play everything cool when stuff would bother me and i bottled it up and took it out on him. but he doesn't deserve that. but instead of saying i dont deserve him. i will say that i do deserve him and he deserves me. just sometimes it cant work out so greatly. i just want everyone to know i love him. and for everyone who has or is or will be in love: it's not a bad thing at all, but it might not work out like you wanted to.

i wrote this for me no one else and you guys can call me a fucking retard for putting it on livejournal, but i want it here.

summer.

Mon, 09 Jun 2008 03:46:13 GMT

it has been quite a while (5 weeks to be exact) that i have posted anything.
i wish i didnt always forget to do this cause i find it calming to talk to all you guys.
who ever reads this.
but i feel i really have nothing to say considering to many things have happened throughout all this time.
but i will try and keep up.
i can tell you that everything has been up and down.
sometimes i feel that im not doing the right thing.
and i will keep doing this maybe wrong thing because of my huge fat organ in my body, that wants me to do this.
i guess two organs, but i wasn't talking about my lungs in the above sentences.

NIKON D40

Sat, 03 May 2008 19:12:27 GMT

This picture isn't really anything
but i would just like to show you how clear it is.

yup thats my new camera.
i am really excited.